A few weeks ago, I purchased the Tamara LaPorte (Williwing.org) Mini-workshop: A Christmas Whimsy. I started it and then stopped. I was frustrated that the canvas wasn’t turning out the way that Tam’s was. Yesterday, I went back to it with a new attitude. It’s ok to be me. It’s ok not to be perfect. It’s ok that my canvas does not look like hers! We have different styles, and gifts.
That’s a lesson that I’ve been trying to teach myself lately. That it is OK:
OK to be a little weird
OK not to be liked by everyone
OK that my art looks different
OK that things aren’t perfect
OK to be me.
It may seem like a simple lesson, but, trust me. It has not been an easy one for me. I have always been held up to standards that I couldn’t measure up to. I’ve always done things just a little bit different and then felt like such a failure for not coming through. It’s a large reason why I don’t talk much to my mother’s side of the family anymore. I’m not them. I don’t do things like them and I was always being berrated for it. A few years ago, I made peace with that and starting living my own life..but again, I fell short. I didn’t practice this new-found belief in other areas of my life: the house, my work, my relationships with others. Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been able to let go and be at peace with being me and being different. Things don’t have to be perfect..they just have to be perfect for me and that is OK.
Until next time..